Jan 24, 2012

The Cross-eyed Classmate

With my overpowering laziness exerting a ban on my blog updates, I tried to write something which has the human emotion fear as its main theme. While chewing the idea over and over again, I do not exactly remember, what it was, that brought her thoughts to my mind.

Well, if I have a strong impulse to write about a girl like her, you people may ask, whether she is the most beautiful girl that I ever met. And the answer is a big No! But, making matters more complicated, if someone asks me to define beauty, the first of many examples that I am going to bring forward will be doubtlessly of this girl. 

Now, what makes this girl an example for the discussions about beauty? The answer is simple. Because she is not beautiful! Though she has good features with everything in good proportion, tarnishing her facial grace, there is a villain; her eyes. She is cross-eyed.

During my Journalism studentship days, she was undergoing a similar course parallelly in the same institute. Among many girls of the institute, the only one who could catch my attention was this lady with squint. Don’t think that without her strabismus, she could be treated as the prettiest of all. Even if her eyes were normal, and as pretty as they used to be in a normal girl, she could be treated as only an average looking girl with normal charms.

Contrary to any other girl that I met in the institute, what I noticed about this girl as striking was her confidence. Though remained most of the time silent – perhaps that could be one of her innate characteristics – she was very modest and at the same time dignified in her walk, postures, and all. Her dressing style and the apparels that she carried were the trendiest of the time.

I had fallen in love with this girl, though she never came to know about my silent admiration. We used to smile each other whenever we passed across, she in her usual modest silent manner, and I with my innate hesitation. I never approached this girl for at least a casual conversation, or in order to make some flirtatious remarks moving a step further. What prevented me from doing all these things was my inherent shyness. I was really afraid of the extreme conservative Kerala society that used to watch keenly every public interaction between a girl and boy, even if they were of the lightest and gentlest nature.

Many of my class mates of the institute have blogs now, and many of them are good readers also. I am really worried if anyone would sneak into Vanity Moments and come to know about my secret admiration towards their cross-eyed class mate. But going by the proverb, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder, I am sure that there must be some persons who would agree that at least in some ways, she is beautiful. 

26 comments:

  1. Nice that your sense of beauty is not just skin deep. :)

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  2. Hmm...I think everyone should have a sense of beauty which is not skin deep..

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  3. It feels funny to fondly remember our past crushes :)

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    1. Yes...do u have any such memories?

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  4. Cross eyed or not, your paths crossed and your heart could a shot. Endearing and a trifle sad about our society and its hypocritical rules.

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    1. I dont exactly say our paths crossed...it was just what you call fancy

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  5. Nice of you not to have hang-ups. But squints are treatable and also harmful to the eyes in the long run. Someone close to her must take her to an eye specialist.

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    1. Squints are treatable? Thats a new info..

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  6. Wow...that was quite an agreeable love story you carried along. It was interesting story that her squint eyes made you to observe her keenly and eventually made to fall in love with her with your gradual growing admiration for her. I wish you had spoken to her and admit your love for her, but those days conservative behaviour stopped you to do so. I hope atleast our future generation wouldn;t act so conservative as we did and would be smart enough to approach a girl/ boy without hesitation.

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    1. hello Elvirah, welcome to my blog..thanks for nice wishes..

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  7. How strange that just a single physical defect can deflect other people's attention and can draw some to them. Glad that you saw the beauty in her which was beyond just the physical appearance.

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    1. Thats true, it may be her small defect which directed my attention towards her otherwise somewhat negligible beauty

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  8. "Main doob Jaaun phir Teri Aankho ki Jheel mein...
    Aye Jaane-Gul-Badan uthaa phir Palak Uthaa..."

    Lovely post Tom....:)

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  9. Dear Tomz,
    in my studies I met an American girl who was cross-eyed, very solid, and definitely not beautiful. BUT she was full of humour and confidence - a virtue that is so important (because I met beautiful people caught in themselves, full of shyness - where others might think they are haughty - but they were just shy).

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    1. Oh..Britta,

      That was a wonderful memory about your old classmate..I am very happy for it..It is a new info that usually beautiful people are seen with full of shyness..

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  10. boss u r a good guy yar..am sure yr choice is right..and i like my dear friend rachna's suggestion...our best wishes r always with u buddy

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    1. Thank you rameshji..u r always good..

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  11. nice post.. ur admiration is not laughable at all. making fun of someone b'coz he/she has some physical problem is the biggest sin we can do. Acc to Francis Bacon 'Dignity of presence is much better than beauty of aspect'

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  12. Hello AS,

    Thank you..Oh you r such a great reader. U knw Baconican quotes!!

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    1. Hi AS..Getting someone commented on my posts with such great philosophical quotes is something I can take with pride..

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  14. thank you and then I am sorry for misunderstanding your reply :)

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    1. Hello AS,

      My blog is open for comments, positives and negatives..if you have any different opinion to what I reflect in my posts, you may please tell me that in reply comments..As far as I am concerned, it is a big thing if any of the post invites open criticism..At least some people consider my posts seriously and they really spend time to read and comment..thank you AS..

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  15. I am sure that is not her picture.
    But like you said, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder....

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